DEPRESSED~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

dear bloggy,

help me plsssssssss, i just cant bear with all these burden and complications in my life anymore, and i know sooo deep in my heart that im going to burst anytime.....all these 'things' just comes swiftly with unexpected moment in time, all these were way tooo instant for me.

And look at me, im just a small lil' sweet heart of urs and am learning to grow up bit by bit in a normal way so that i could cope with all the surroundings, new environment, atmosphere, new world of course'.

I just wanted to live and lead to a more family-oriented culture because i never have had a normal life BEFORE, and its soooooooooooooo freaking wrong for a child plus, the unfairness which bang towards me, am i losing something from all of the kids out there, can someone and anyone just preach me a thing or two in adapting the 'human being' life and culture??????? @.@

I've alrdy tried all my best and put the best effort for my future, moreover i've sacrificed LOADS for both of the people in this planet, so is this u're paying me back and is this what i get at the end??????? And, am i suppose to get back all the sweet and the best things from the rest of the mortal, and do i not deserve all the good things in my life after all that i've done for the both of us which just to make and create a better future for the both of us and also for the kids generation next time???? DID i done anything or something wrong in between and during these years????

Teach me, Guide me, Flow with me, Dance with me, Coach me, Instruct me, Take me to the better place, Train me, Educate me & etc etc etc etc............

I can 101% assure you that im not on my way or anytime soon giving up all i have done during these few years back however, im going to be improve it and give it the best of all i can do, plus to make sure that both of us can seriously see, feel and sense MY affection towards our future.

As you always know that im always beside you when u teared and laughed, i will never ever in my life to turn my back on you but to face to face with you and CARRY all the 'things' together and move forward to a better future. im hoping that all these will come true one day and seriously hope that someday u'll see what am i trying to do for both of the mortals here. Im working very hard for it, but DO U????????????? And of course, im not backing up or running away, as i wanna prove to every1 that knows me since im small till now.

I WILL DO IT~~~~just wait and see, i will never let myself down but to grow even higher.

I wish to have GOD's BLESS as well to help me deal with all this sufferings. and i hope GOD, U can HEAR MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE................ I BEG FOR UR KIND FORGIVENESS.

Amen!!!!!!!!!

signing out bloggy, c u soon and tc

au revoir...